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Killing Themselves
This is a suicide note I found about ten minutes before witnessing my friend kill himself. I had just ran through the door the very moment he shot himself.
Dear Kenna,
I can't help myself anymore, and I can't help you anymore. I feel so useless and unneseccary, even to you. I know what you would say about that; I'm not useless or uneseccary. You were always so good to me even when no one else was there for me or when I got into trouble. I feel so depressed and angry at everything. I can't be here anymore because I know I'll just die inside and I really will have no purpose to live. Even after everything we've been through as friends I just can't live feeling like this, I don't want you to see me like this but I can't change my ways of emotions that are taking me over. I know you would always be there for me, and I also knew you were sad because I was sad. You would always make me laugh but I was afraid you wouldn't always be there to make me happy even though you wanted to. You were the omly person who made me stay alive this long. I just wanted to let you know I loved you like a sister but now it's time for me to go. I don't want to live like this anymore, because nothing else is helping me. Thank You so much for your friendship, love and kindness towards me after all these years.
I'll miss you so much Kenna,
Love Yusef
This was when I was about 14 years old, Yusef was 17 years old.
My true friends from when I was younger used to call me Kenna. So I guess I want to be called Kenna again when we say our real names in the forums.
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Thu Jul 12, 2007 8:37 pm |
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Sorry about your friend, even though it was 5 years ago, anyway, I'll try to remember to call you Kenna. 
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I have come to believe that he is:
A. A demon.
B. Death himself.
C. Undead.
D. An evil manifestation of all the evil thoughts that any and all humans have every imagined in a human-like form. |
Lord J's latest quote of the week:
"Killing means never having to say you're sorry." |
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| Lord J wrote: |
| Sorry about your friend, even though it was 5 years ago, anyway, I'll try to remember to call you Kenna. |
Thanks Lord J. 
I was just thinking about it today.
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kenna, i'll remember.
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Thank you Jokerfest.
Oh yeah if anyone needs to talk about these kinds of things, or wants to than feel free.
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I will call you Kenna too. Of all the things I forget, I will make sure this isn't one of them, Kenna.
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| endnekind wrote: |
| I will call you Kenna too. Of all the things I forget, I will make sure this isn't one of them, Kenna. |
Thank you kindly endnekind.
HaHa since this post was put up I've been given so many different nicknames.
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elphy and elle are just two. 
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| endnekind wrote: |
I have come to believe that he is:
A. A demon.
B. Death himself.
C. Undead.
D. An evil manifestation of all the evil thoughts that any and all humans have every imagined in a human-like form. |
Lord J's latest quote of the week:
"Killing means never having to say you're sorry." |
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Mon Jul 16, 2007 9:59 pm |
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| Lord J wrote: |
| elphy and elle are just two. |
Hey 2 is a big number in my world
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uh huh, math was never my strong point so i agree with kenna here.
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| Jokerfest wrote: |
| uh huh, math was never my strong point so i agree with kenna here. |
HaHa
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...i hate math... 
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And death was walking, strutting along the street, seeking in life naught but joy and laughter,
Sudenly she turned back , standing on the threshold of her house, she saw her curse upon this world,
As in her steps fire burned and chaos reigned in silence,
For her executioner behind her follows, punishing all in haze,
And then as he appeares, dissapears he in darkness |
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Me too
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most of it is not even aplicable!
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And death was walking, strutting along the street, seeking in life naught but joy and laughter,
Sudenly she turned back , standing on the threshold of her house, she saw her curse upon this world,
As in her steps fire burned and chaos reigned in silence,
For her executioner behind her follows, punishing all in haze,
And then as he appeares, dissapears he in darkness |
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Tue Jul 17, 2007 9:40 am |
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I am wierd. I am good at math I can do all sorts of stuff with it and know how to use a lot of it in normal life, but I still hate it. And I believe that the only reason it works is because we believe that it works, because of one of my core beliefs that belief in stuff itself is what makes stuff work.
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Daily Quote: "Learning without thinking is bad, thinking without learning is dangerous."
If you love Jesus Christ and are 1000% proud of it, put this in your signiture.
| crazed4now wrote: |
You're my new favorite person, endy. |
| Gencdo wrote: |
| endy. I've decided you are now the proud owner of all my hugs! |
Private Pansy endnekind of the Brotherhood
People who have hugged me:
crazed xINFINITY (Big hug winner! Gets exclusive oncoming hugs!)
Gary
Melkor
Arc
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Tsuki
Kintai
SuperSayianBahamut
Gencdo
People who wouldn't:
Shandris (All her hugs are belong to neil) |
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